Dear nac,
I am sure in these few months you may have read a tons of material, but if i can suggest you only one thing to read it would be "Phantom of Pits"
https://www.bsp-capital.com/documents/PhantomofthePits.pdf
Only knowledge (little of which you seem to have acquired) is useless unless it brings in "Behavior Modification". You must change your behavior and act accordingly.
Also if you don't find time to read the book (not so big), I am listing the two rules (out of 3),
1. Assume you are wrong until proven correct
2. Press your winners hard exclusively
In my own words, keep reducing your position size with time if it's not in profit. Start with small position and add to it when it's in profit. Now i am aware that you are doing jobbing, and these rules may not be apt as it is. So either modify them to suit your style or as suggested by someone else here, stop Jobbing (atleast temporarily, till you get the feeling of Flow and sense of trading in NOW).
Once again i wish you luck and i honestly hope this time my luck works for you. Do not go broke. Reduce your position to minimal before you realise you have no money to trade. You got to be in the game to have a U turn someday (and it will come someday if you change your "behavior according to your knowledge).
One of my favorite tirukural (hoping you understand tamil, going by your location),
daiwathal agadeninum muyrachi than maiwarutha kolitharum (excuse my transliteration, it is aweful, meaning:
the work which is impossible by GOD is possible by HARDWORK)