Hi Eastern,
I don't know why but something tells me you're a very creative person. But for that creativity to manifest in spite of your self doubt, you need to accept yourself unconditionally.
This book was life changing for me when I was in a similar condition: What to say when you talk to yourself- Shad helmstetter"
To let your repressed feelings out try soc (stream of consciousness) writing.
Your questions on existence are all relevant. Life is not always smooth. We are all learning, till the very end. But everything has a purpose. I cant explain, but I realize it everyday.
Lastly, meditation has to be an essential part of daily routine.
Good luck.
I don't know why but something tells me you're a very creative person. But for that creativity to manifest in spite of your self doubt, you need to accept yourself unconditionally.
This book was life changing for me when I was in a similar condition: What to say when you talk to yourself- Shad helmstetter"
To let your repressed feelings out try soc (stream of consciousness) writing.
Your questions on existence are all relevant. Life is not always smooth. We are all learning, till the very end. But everything has a purpose. I cant explain, but I realize it everyday.
Lastly, meditation has to be an essential part of daily routine.
Good luck.