If what Deepak has said is true, then it is indeed a sad, sad, sad day for me today. The reason is that I have considered TT as a Guru, and looked up to him for his discipline. I have learnt so much from him how to trade in crude, and have branched out to trade NG, Gold, Copper. I really owe him much because as I am writing this, I have multiple positions in crude that are going my way. And for what I have learnt from following his thread, I will forever be grateful to him.
TT - if what has happened is true, I will not desert you in the hour that you would need somebody to support you in the time of darkness. I have been thru situations in the past, where I lost a huge sum, and averaged down and froze like a cornered rabbit, unable or rather unwilling to take the loss and admit that I was wrong. That incident was etched in my mind, and I thought that till the day that I died, I would hold on to atleast one stock of that company forever to remind me of my mistake.
But in life, we live, learn and move on. Being fixated on my loss, or looking back was only negative load on my mind that stopped me and hurt my confidence. I was finding it difficult to take the trades that I should have. I went thru a long and painful time to come to understand and accept what was wrong, and gradually accepted what happened and decided that I should rather learn from this experience and use this painful experience in a positive manner to be a better trader.
I am glad to say that today, I am a better trader because of this painful episode of my past. I have moved on and no longer hold the stock and sold the last one that I held on so as to remove the memory of the painful.
TT - maybe people will abandon you in the hour that you need them the most. I believe that in life we are only defeated when we stop learning from our mistakes. I believe that you can crawl out of the hole you may be in - even if it takes time, and if you take the learning for what it is worth, you will be able to stand atop the highest peak one can aspire for. My best wishes for you. God bless you.